“Happiness runs in a circular motion”

September 24, 2000

Rev. Annie Holmes

 

When the family of my childhood would all pile into the car and go on a

vacation to our cottage, often the five of us children would begin to fight

and argue, my sister was fond of saying, “Mom, he’s looking at me!” And then

it would start, “Are we there yet?” My Mom would turn around and her words

are still ringing fresh in my ears, “This ride, in this car, right this

moment, may be the happiest and best time of the whole vacation. This time

right here together in this car. So pay attention and don’t miss what might

be the finest time we will have all summer!”

 

Oh, what we have missed in our lives by, either wishing our time away,

wishing for a better time, a happier time, or by simply not paying

attention. How to find happiness?  Isn’t that the question of the hour, the

day, the millennium?  Maybe happiness is simply paying attention. If you

want a tough challenge, try staying focused on the present moment for more

than 5 minutes!!!

 

Happiness, contentment, pleasure, gladness, delight, exhilaration, joy, how

to find them, how to sustain them, how to make them real in our lives, that

is the question that is on most people’s lips, whether it is spoken or not.

All the media deals with the pursuit of happiness endlessly. We are told to

drink this liquid, pour this stuff on our bodies, listen to this music,

travel to these places in order to be happy.  There are 30 million books a

year sold on how to find it. People have been known to sell all they have in

order to possess it, walk mountains and ask gurus where to find it, and yet,

search their whole lives to only get a glimpse of the bliss, the merriment,

the excitement of being truly deep down happy.

 

Listen to a story from China of one such seeker of happiness…

There was once a poor stonecutter who labored all day cutting stone slabs

from a mountain. The sun beat down on him mercilessly while he worked. One

day, he stopped for a minute from his labors and thought about his life.

“This is a poor life. I have no power, I am not happy. I spend my days

cutting slabs out of a mountain. How I wish I could be as powerful as the

sun beating down on me. Then I would truly be happy!”

 

The gods heard his complaint and decided to give him what he wanted. In the

twinkling of an eye, the stonecutter found himself in the center of the sun

and now he beat down upon other poor souls. “This is more like it,” he

exclaimed. But within a short time some dark clouds blotted out the sun’s

rays and there was no one to beat down upon. “Oh dear,” said the

stonecutter, “the clouds are even more powerful than the sun.”

 

At once he become one with the clouds as they moved across the sky as they

created rain and thunder and lightening. But very soon a strong wind came up

and the clouds were dispersed. “Oh my,” said the stonecutter, “how fine it

would be to be as powerful as the winds. They can cause the clouds to

disappear.”  And immediately he was transformed into the wind and went with

it as it danced and howled around the world. But the stonecutter noticed

that try as the wind might, there were certain things that it could not

move. When it came to a mountain, nothing the wind could do would move or

change the mountain.

 

Before the thought was fully formulated the stonecutter became the mountain.

“Now,” he thought, “I am really powerful.” But then he felt the mountain

flinch and through the mountain’s senses he felt the small, determined tread

of a stonecutter on the mountain’s edge. He felt the strength of the

stonecutter’s tools as they chiseled a block of stone from the mountain.

 

“Ah,” sighed the stonecutter in understanding as he slipped back into his

own body. “Ah, I do have power. I shape my own happiness from my

circumstances, my abilities and from my will - even as I must be aware of

the inter-relatedness of all power and happiness.”

 

Do you ever find yourself reasoning, if only the whole world would stop,

then I would finally have a chance at happiness. If only the whole world and

my life would go as I think it should, then I would be happy.  If only I

were richer, or prettier, or smarter, or in a different job or, well, you

fill in the blank. The message of our society is that if something happened

to us on the outside, then we would be happier on the inside.

 

Here are some thoughts from others on finding happiness…

 

John F. Kennedy - Happiness is the full use of your powers along lines of

excellence in a life affording scope.”

 

Thomas Jefferson - The happiest moments in my life have been the few which I

have passed at home in the bosom of my family.

 

Archibald Rutledge - One of the sanest, surest, and most generous joys of

life comes from being happy over the good fortune of others.

 

Helen Keller - When one door of happiness closes another opens; often we

look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been

opened for us.”

 

W. Beran Wolfe - If you observe a truly happy person, you will find them

building a boat, writing a symphony, educating their children, growing

double dahlias in their garden, or looking for dinosaur eggs in the Gobi

desert. They will not be searching for happiness as if it were a shirt

button that has rolled under the table. They will not be striving for it as

a goal in itself. They will have become aware that they are happy in the

course of living life twenty four crowded hours of the day.

 

Montesquieu - If one only wished to be happy, this could be easily

accomplished, but we wish to be happier than other people, and this is

always difficult, for we believe others to be happier than they are.

 

Storm Jameson - Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy

simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed.

 

To know that others need you and to be open to the needs of others,

experience shows knowing those and living those needs to the fullest, may be

the door to happiness. But doing good for others is not often simple.  Doing

good often means uncovering and evoking the good that is already there.

Doing requires more than simply knowing what is wrong. Sometimes it calls

forth from us the hero that lives in each one of us.

 

There is a story I have told here last year, but because of its power and

authority it bears repeating. This story takes place in Dachau, the camp of

hard labor, torture and ultimate death in the gas chambers for most of the

Jews who were sent there. The story goes that a certain Rabbi had asked the

prison officials if he couldn’t be given a chance to do a sermon for the

prisoners. He was told he could.

 

And on the Saturday of his sermon,  as he was ready to climb the scaffold to

preach, the guards stopped him and told him he could indeed preach as they

had promised, but he could say only one word. Laughing to themselves,  they

felt they had played a pretty good trick on him.  The Rabbi, as he walked up

the steps, sadly put away the notes from the sermon he was about to give,

and as he looked out into the hundreds of faces before him. He took a deep

breath, and said his one word that he was allowed, he said to those

starving, hurting, scared, anxious people,  “Others.”   What the Rabbi

realized that with all that had been stripped away from them, all they had

left was compassion for each other.  If you had only a one-word sermon that

you were asked to deliver, what would your one word be?

 

I guess you know by now that I am going to tell you that it is not by owning

stuff, or making lots of money, or trying new gadgets, or seeking new

adventures that you will find happiness. If that were so many more people

would be supremely happy and there would be no need for this sermon today.

I can tell you that happiness, true, deep, lasting happiness comes from

compassion, sympathy, care and love that is shown to others.  Too bad too,

that the advertising world, the media and others haven’t figured that out

yet. But then how would you bottle compassion, how could you sell empathy?

Real happiness is found in compassion for yourself and others.

 

We all have an equal right to happiness. And, as we stop self-striving

happiness will take over our lives.  Think of it, everyday life gives us

innumerable chances to open our hearts, if only we would take those

opportunities.

Sergol Rinpoche, a Tibetan Buddhist monk living in the United States,

reminds us - be vulnerable.  When reaching out to others, if your fear

touches someone’s pain then it’s pity, but when your love touches someone’s

pain, it’s compassion.  And it is that love that fuels compassion that

brings about happiness.

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My friend Marie was a clever, intelligent, caring individual in the middle

of her “mid-life crisis,” she liked to tell people.  She had been offered a

promotion in her job, a promotion that she had worked for, for over 15

years. The glass ceiling was well established in her profession. But she had

broken through. It had taken years and years of working 15 hour days,

week-ends and holidays. She worked harder than anyone else in her department

of her company. She had been better trained than any other person she knew.

And she knew that the administration knew it too. They could no longer

ignore her and her achievements and now, finally, in this, the middle of her

life, she had reached it, the goal, the end, nirvana, THE PROMOTION! Now,

she was going to be the boss of people who had stepped over her and on her

for years. Now, she was going to be able to tell people where to go, what to

do, how to prioritize, oh happy day, oh happy day. It was all so sweet. She

kissed the bonus check, she sat on her desk and called her best friends to

celebrate with her right after work.  She just wished she was still married

so she could wave the fat new check and the promotion in his face. Oh golly,

this felt good, Marie giggled.

 

As she took a cab home that night, she didn’t feel so well. Maybe it was the

shrimp scaloppini that she had had with friends to celebrate. As she got

closer and closer to home she realized that she was feeling worse and worse.

Her head was hot, her stomach hurt, her eyes ached, her heart was racing.

After she got out of the cab, she made it up to her apartment but barely

made it into the living room. There she laid down on the floor, with her

coat still on and her heavy briefcase, feeling like a noose, still around

her neck. “Crucified,” she thought, “I feel crucified.”  She began to cry.

On this the happiest day of her life, she thought, here she was laying fully

dressed on her living room floor, too sick to even call 911.

 

She laid there for minutes, hours, she will never know, but she had never

been so tired in her whole life. She slept.  She dreamt she saw her

Grandmother and her aunts, all alive all laughing and talking and baking

something. She saw her sister, in the dream, the sister she hadn’t had time

to visit in years. There were her growing nieces and nephews, they looked so

real, she could almost touch them,  she hardly knew them. Then, she saw

legends of people all walking toward her holding out their hands, asking for

things, begging for help. Then she was handing out bandages and food as fast

as she could, but they wouldn’t stop, they just kept coming and coming,

marching, bleeding, crying, asking, asking…Marie woke up with a start. “Oh,

my” she said holding her head, “what is going on?”

 

After finally being able to stand and hang up her coat and put away her

briefcase, she drew a hot bath and made a pot of tea. As she sat listening

to the rain and watching the fire she had built, Marie heard something

coming from her memory, something she had not thought of in years and years.

She had taken a Transcendental Meditation class in her twenties. Om Mani

Padme Hum, she heard clearly in the yogi’s throaty chant. It was the

Buddhist mantra of compassion. Om Mani Padme Hum.  She had to smile.  All

those teachings came back to her and felt to her parched soul like the

healing rain outside must have felt to the dry, parched ground. Healing

words continued, almost as if they came from the fire,  “As we search for

ways to be compassionate in our lives, we realize that our separation from

others is artificial.  It is only our own egotism that leads us to define

ourselves as individuals.”

Marie went to her closet and got out her old journal from eons ago. There,

in the front of the journal was a picture of her, much younger, what a smile

she had on her face. She lightly touched the cheek of the younger version of

herself. “Where has that girl gone,” she asked herself?  She turned the

yellow pages of the old book and saw where she had written, “If we allow

life to change our way of thinking, we will understand our essential oneness

with all people, with all things. As we are compassionate, we begin to

uncover our own best heart, our fundamental goodness and that is the aspect

of ourselves that we identify and encourage. It is important that we begin

by working on ourselves, strengthening our love and compassion, before going

on to help others. Otherwise our “help” could ultimately be motivated by a

subtle selfishness, it could become just a burden to us and to others.”   “A

burden, a burden,” yes Marie thought, this promotion is a burden.  I have

felt burdens, untold burdens.

 

For one afternoon, Marie felt what it was like to sell out. In that one

afternoon she had lost her integrity, she found in this new position, it was

in her to act no better than those who had hurt her for so long. She needed

to find the hero with herself. The courageous one within her who would help

her find a new way to be a boss, a compassionate boss, a boss without

selfishness. She understood for the first time that that was the only way

she could be happy, truly happy in this new position.  Oh my she was so

tired.  “Maybe a few days off were in order,” Marie thought. Yes, a few days

to bring into her life a new sense of what is truly important. It had been a

harrowing night, full of storms and demons, ghosts and unknowns. “Funny,”

she thought, “I thought I had it all together, and here I am falling apart.”

Marie finished her tea and rinsed out her cup. She went to bed feeling

quiet, hummm,  what was the word -  happy, yes, she felt better knowing that

happiness didn’t always consist in getting what one wanted, or getting rid

of what can’t be got rid of - but rather - in a different vision.

Peacefully, Marie slept.

 

Happiness runs, happiness runs.  It runs to us and often it slips out of our

fingertips and we only have memories of what it was like to possess it.

Karma means the ability to create and to change.  Happy karma to all of you

this week, as you go through your daily routines or make life changing

decisions. Remember to change and create with compassion and heroism.

 

Happiness is learning to mix knowledge with a healthy dose of experience,

experimentation and contemplation.  Happiness, as we reach out to others, is

the sum total of being human.  Glory halleluiah!!  We have only this

ordinary moment, this present time, this day.  We have no time like the

present to begin the journey of self-care, traveling toward courageous,

confident, bold caring for others and find ultimate happiness for ourselves.